"Of their own, my hands have nothing more than any man's and less now at this tottering, lamewit age of mine when most of what I ever had is more than mostly spent."(F. Buechner "Listening to Your Life" p. 62)
What in your past do you remember being good at. At one time I was a fine musician. I was never disciplined enough in practicing to be a great musician, but I could play the bass line with my tuba well enough. Now I'm not sure I could make music on a tuba anymore.
I used to be a wrestler. Okay I won't claim that I was even a good wrestler. But I also know that if I went out on the mat today I would probably hurt myself.
I'm sure there are other things in my past that I used to be good at, and no longer do or in some cases can't do. Does that mean that I no longer have anything to offer the world? Probably not. I'm sure there are things that I am good at now that I wasn't very good at in the past. Problem is I'm not that good at self analysis.
I don't see myself as any more special than the next person, though I could do better in not seeing myself as less than. I'm not the best priest, father, husband, or coach ever, but I'm not the worst either. In some ways I just am doing the best I can with what God has blessed me with. Only those whom I've known on this journey will be able to judge how well I"m doing or have done.
Blessings,
Ed
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